May 2011
2 posts
Goodbye Letter to Pumpkin Patch,
It’s been a memorable 3 years here at Pumpkin Patch. I’ve learned quite a lot throughout the years and met several admirable individuals, who have inspired me to move forward and to give my very best at whatever I undertake. I’m glad that I have accomplished one of my greatest goals here, being able to speak to people because I was always afraid. I’m definitely not the same...
Quit coming into my life if your not going to be apart of it. It irritates the shit out of me how it’s so simple for you to just come and then leave like its nothing.
December 2010
2 posts
Thank you
I’ll take that as a lesson learned.
I haven't blogged in a long time
So I’m going to do a little updates. Mhm, its pretty sad to know that I have drifted away from a few close ones and that I don’t even take the initiative to do something about it. I most of all miss C and I hope that things will go back to the way it was. I really want 2011 to be whole different year because 2010 wasn’t just there for me.
November 2010
1 post
Halloween Night
was good. I love just chilling with the cousins and sisters. Moments with them are the greatest, even just sitting in mcdonalds for hours just talking and laughing. Getting chased by car wasn’t so bad at all. Suprised none of us got egged. Mhm, wasn’t a halloween I expected though. Maybe next year, everyone would be down to go somewhere far.
Anyways, I feel so moody nowadays..
October 2010
3 posts
I like
how things just go away on its own. Less weight put to it.
My weakness
I realize that my weakness is that I always doubt myself. I always have a mind set that I can’t do this or I won’t ever be that good. This is something I really need to work on because carrying those negative thoughts won’t get me where I want to be. Staying positive is always good.
10/08/10 GIRLS NIGHT OUT.
Our night started out eating at Pasta Pormadora in Santana Row. The food was good, but not too satifying. We took some pictures then, after we went to karokee after a long ass time being undecisive of where we wanted to go. haha. We need more nights like these !!
Mhm, anyways I’m pretty tired of it all. Things just go back and forth with yu and it just aint getting neither of us...
September 2010
6 posts
Interview at Armani Exchange
It went smooth, but I doubt I got the job. The people are so competitive. I been at Pumpkin Patch for too long and I think it would be nice I surround myself with adult clothing for a change.
itschristinaya:
“Maybe we were moving just a little too fast. But what we done we cant take it back. Now im sitting here half way crazy cause I know he still thinks about me too. And theres no way in hell that I can be just friends with you and I wish we never did it.”
WORDD.
itschristinaya:
“Maybe we were moving just a little too fast. But what we done we cant take it back. Now im sitting here half way crazy cause I know he still thinks about me too. And theres no way in hell that I can be just friends with you and I wish we never did it.”
Don't even try saying you feel bad
Because I know for a fact you dont. If you did in the first place you would have told me from the start, not now when we got everything straightened out. I want this to be a memorable time for us all, but since your the only one thats not going, your going to miss out. Its not even about the money or about the drive there. Think about it. I don’t want to go over this again. I’m tired...
Watch when shit gets to you again. Don’t come running back because I’ma make sure the doors are closed.
I'll remember what you said.
There is no other meaning to it. It came out straight forward and bold.
August 2010
7 posts
Just saying.
karaamarie:
Sorry if I hurt your feelings yesterday on telling you the truth. It’s just wrong for you to be doing these things when you already have a girl. We can still be friends if you’d like. &Unless you’re completely done with her, please do not come back to me as a rebound. Do you guys see what I mean when I say I’m too nice? I end up getting taken advantage of.
I HELLA FEEL YU GIRL....
I'm sorta tired of everything now
need to get back up on my two feet and start walking my own path. Anyways, I don’t even get why we don’t even talk anymore. Mhm, its whatever and it don’t really matter now. Just don’t come back. KTHANKSBYE.
CLUB FUZ
I went with the cousins, sisters, jubaay and some friends. Saw couple of people I havent seen in soo long. I had a great time last night ! Gay guys are only good to watch, not dance with. HAHA. Couldn’t handle two gay dudes, almost died dancing inbetween them. Mhm, there were some really cute guys though, not sure if they gay or not, but not like it matters. Mhm, well can’t wait...
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL
I felt lost. haha Wasnt a good day. Classes were boring as heck, and I didnt know most of tha people. Mhm, hopefully senior year for me turns out better.
So much for calling someone selfish and ignorant
Yu are no different. Why can’t yu just be straight forward about needing a ride, instead of asking me to hang out when really all yu need is a ride.. You didnt have to ask me to hang out with yu just to get a ride there. The truth, is what I prefer. Yu knew I couldnt get in because Im under 18. I mean hello, pretty much tha whole point I didn’t go. What the hell am I going to do in SF...
You talk like...
I dont know anything. I mean yeah, I might not know alot of things, but I at least know where I’m at. I mean I know yu care about me and only want the best for me, but girl your just takin it up a notch, and things are getting outta hands. Yu need to check yourself out before yu say anything to me. Yu did worse then me in tha past, I never said one thing about it yet. I guess its experience...
08.04.10
THANKS PEEJAY FOR DINNER ! :)
July 2010
12 posts
Sometimes,
I just want to go back to how things were from tha start and just live without having to deal with so much shit…
I don't know what I really want anymore
Yu keep coming in and out of my life. Getting my hopes up then bringing it back down. And when I finally forget about yu and someone else comes in my life, someone so sweet and like no other guy, yu come back out of tha blues and my feelings start to come back. And something always got to fuck it all up. I don’t get it. I don’t know anymore…..I’m just hella tired of this...
These past days have been the best with you
But from here on out, things are going to have to be on a different level. I know where I stand in this, and I’m hoping you do too. I don’t blame you for anything, like you said we both got carried away with how we felt and just took the moment. But at least we realized what was wrong. I looked down because I felt so bad, I know that what we were doing wasn’t right. If you...
Why does it all gotta hit me all at once
I feel for both ya. I dont want to because I aint that typa girl, but its just sometimes yer feelings cant be controlled. Theres so much good in both you guys. I feel as if i’m going to walk out tha door alone. I really want yu to think twice on what yer doing, cause before yu come to me, straighten yerself out. Dont just leave yer girl hangin ,let her begin to live her life on her own. It...
FUNNY ASS NIGGA, i swearr
“my mind never gets tired
of the mind fuccen
specially if your mind tryna fuc my mind”
If you want something done, take actions.
raizsaaa:
You can’t always expect and hope that the other person will do something. If you’re just waiting around for something to happen, trust me NOTHING will happen. As a human, we can’t read minds. You can’t always think the other person will you give you want you want if you don’t speak up. TAKE THE INITIATIVE. it’s better knowing, than thinking “what if?” for the longest time.
SHIT! I...
Uneasy.
I D K. I finally got what I wanted, now what?
Damn,
I’m hella worked up. Like no lie. Thanks Rhia, Raiza and Peter for a fuckin good ass night ! These bitches be tha party starters ! Went to party in Union City and it was different. Never been to anything like this. DJ was off tha fuckin hook. SHIT ! I couldn’t handle some of tha guys though, they’re too good. All tha girls can hella dance. Thats wsup though. Better...
June 2010
18 posts
Dear Jojo,
Feels different without yu being here. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I do miss yu, brother. I miss yer loud mouth, tha jokes yu make, that big smile of yers, and tha long eyelashes. ha jk. Hope yer doing ok down there. Its going to be a tough journey, but I know yu can do it ! :) Yer a fighter, not a quitter.
Theres a reason..
Yeah, thats why were out these past couple days. To get away from all tha bullshit. To keep our mind at ease and not have to worry about anything or anyone. Whenever I blog about life, I sit and think about everything that has happen so far, how we dealt with the hardest situations. How it showed we were able to face what we thought we couldn’t. How we went through this alone. How we stuck...
Went to greatmall,
with tha cousins and chilled tha whole time there, saw Christina working haha. I felt soo fucked up, don’t want to go into details, but we were fuckin with people. haha Then Klien, Toan and Mike came to chill with us for a bit. Then they left. Awhile later, they called us to chill with them, so we all decided to go to tha park and drink. It was fun, got to meet some boys. Drank a little. And...
“We are who we are, even if we sometimes forget”
No matter how my family looks at me,
I’m still who I am. I never changed from tha very start. We all do careless things we would never imagine ourselves doing. It’s just tha little mistakes. Just understand me too.
.
I learned to not get myself into useless situations. Why fight? I always tell people that it doesnt get yu anywhere but trouble. It doesnt benefit anything. What do we know? I went against myself. I put myself into someone elses situation so I have to deal with tha consequences. I’m fine with that because I know what I did wrong. I was at tha wrong place at tha wrong time. I was so caught up...
061510.
Went with cousins to go eat at Iguanas. Then, picked up Viviandaddy and got dropped off at Senh’s for his 18th birthday. Sorry yer party didnt go tha way yu wanted it to be, oh and sorry about that table. haahhaha , wasnt me :X. Party moved to Christians(fagget). It was boring at first because fuckin Christina and Asshely wasn’t there. Assholes….But it got fun later. Played a...
People smoke, people drink, people do all sorts of...
(via sttnguyen, ayokiko)
DAMN,
this has been one of the greatest summer so far for me. I been out for tha past 5 days living life. Can’t wait for tha days to come.
GOOD NIGHT LAST NIGHT 061310
SUCH A GOOD BONDING TIME WITH ALL THA COUSINS. I HAVENT SEEN THEM FOR THA LOONGEST. ITS CRAZY SEEING HOW MUCH WE’VE ALL GROWN, BUT I’M GLAD NOTHING CHANGED. DAMN, I PRACTIALLY ATE ALL NIGHT, NONSTOP FOOD. HAHA
JOJO'S GOODBYE PARTY!
Yesturday was one of tha best days. It was nice seeing everyone again. We ate and watched everyone play dodgeball. I never laughed this much in awhile. I’m going to miss yu JOJO ! Hope yu tha best on yer trip. Thanks for everything. <3
Everyone went home and got ready, then party at melcher’s fail so we all went to my coousins and PLAYED KING CUPS and tha wiii . goodshit. :)
Aside from all tha bullshit,
yu made my day. Its tha littlest things yu say to me. But wtf, i’m still soo confused.
WHAT A BAD EXPERIENCE.
Yu got to learn how to be considerate sometimes. He drove all tha way down here from SAN LEANDRO. And the moment we got to sf in front of tha club, yu guys are telling us that yu dont want to go anymore? WTF IS THAT? How do yu think that makes us feel? How do yu think that makes him feel? If yu were being smart yu should’ve told us from tha start, so we didnt waste our time going all tha way...
just dance wii
My cousins are sooo cute ! Damn, if only i had a recorder right now.. geesus
I now work at Armani Exchange at Valley Fair
alihaaaji:
I FINALLY GOTTA FUCKIN JOB!
fuck, i’m soo proud of yu. now we can officially take lunch together :)